ADHD w/Autism under capitalism is destroying me slowly.
"Yes I would love to have the time and energy for friends, but I'm not even sure I remember how to make them properly these days."
We are alone, and yet utterly not alone. Seeing someone else deal with something so similar to how I feel, at least lets me know there are others out there who feel similar.
A lot of this. Possibly with a side of 'for a lot of years the only thing that really consistently held my interest was badly written forced fem smut' a lot of which honestly, with the benefit of years, is pretty skeevy and leans heavily on misogynist tropes (also often racist ones).