when you cant seem to get over a phobia, you may want to try turning it into a philia instead
i had a mild fear of clowns, then i saw my hot friend in clown makeup and decided actually clowns are kinda hot now.
you can do it. i believe in you
i wouldn't say i had a phobia of them but i didn't particularly like spiders and now i'm happy to have one chilling on the ceiling corner above my bed :) she's my night time bud i've decided. i also got a tarantula plushie that's very cute
what getting a passive interest in drow lore does to a mf (one of my twitter moots got the full on drow autism and ended up getting an actual tarantula and she's beautiful)