oh haha cool, Pfizer's estradiol cypionate is "depleted" and the next estimated shipment is October. I'm sure this won't actually last a year like last time, or like. result in an actual death toll because they have a national supply monopoly courtesy of the FDA and for some of us it's the only effective delivery. what a silly thought to even have!
anyway gee what did I do last time... oh yeah I moved my prescription to the one (1) mail-order compounding pharmacy I found that could make it in-house. wait why did I stop using them again? right right they're in Texas and suddenly mysteriously had to stop shipping to California for reasons of regulatory compliance, haha funny how that came up just last week, Baader-Meinhof am I right?
cool that this happened just in time for no longer Pride
approximate estrone : estradiol blood level ratio as measured on non-oral delivery: ~4:5
as measured on oral delivery: ~8:1
approximate hours spent sobbing over reminders of the hips I will never have in the last three years: ~0
since being forced back to pills yesterday morning: ~4
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god the fucking estrone overload from having to go back to pills is just a bountiful cornucopia ain't it. my emotions are less wacky than last week (we'll see if that's a cycle thing lol) but this week I seem to have become extremely diurnal in terms of my sleep cycle (like, unable to keep my eyes open at 11pm, and snapping awake at dawn) but not in terms of when I actually feel awake and alert, which remains evening/night. so at any given time I'm either blurry-brain eepy, or eyelids-heavy eepy, or both. a diverging Venn diagram of eeps.
upside, I've confirmed that medicaid shouldn't get snitty over more frequent blood tests for titration on a new delivery method, and my provider is willing to work with me on that, so tomorrow I get to call around and look for a mail-order compounding pharmacy that will do topical estradiol cream or gel and hopefully we actually won't see if weepy week was a cycle thing.