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On a similar topic to some posts I've recently seen/shared, I just want to say: the idea of a world without men, or a world where everyone is a girl, would theoretically be better for some people, but it would also involve the forcible detransition (or brainwashing, mind wiping, Thanos snapping, etc., depending on how scifi we're talking) of a lot of people who specifically and ardently aren't women, not because of

  • some moral failure to empathize with women
  • callousness towards misogyny
  • insufficient experience of being treated as a woman/feminine

but because after the same introspection women are capable of, we've come to the conclusion we're just... not women?

Plenty of us, btw, know we're not women because we are or have been treated as women in some capacity, and while I'm glad some people find that a euphoric or healing experience, that's highly contextual to the individual.

In much the same way that the experience of "being called your name" is not the same as "being called Mark" unless your name is Mark, "experiencing gender euphoria" and "experiencing the world as a woman" are not the same unless you are a woman.

My own experience of "womanhood" is having my sense of self questioned, being expected to maintain behaviors alien to me, people apologizing for acknowledging my nonconformity and insisting I do conform to try to make me feel better (it doesn't bc I don't think who I am is bad), being reduced to an outside assumption of how my body must function and therefore the person that must make me. This is not because being a woman is universally a terrible internal experience but because... I'm just not one!

A lot of transmascs have complicated feelings about not being women because of the way in which it's framed by many people as "siding with the bad guy," almost. This idea of how much we "must" hate women or femininity to ~opt out~. How much we "must" have deeply internalized gender roles to believe the only way we can be ourselves is to not be women. How we're making ourselves "ugly" and "unlovable" by transitioning and therefore depriving the world of more women.

But that assumes the world was due me as a woman, when it never was. It assumes the only reason to embody any kind of masculinity, or even androgyny beyond certain bounds, is misogyny. It assumes that there is no way to care for someone who is not like you. There's no room in that thinking for us to be full, independent people with different thoughts and values... notably, a different collection of intrinsic factors that constitute our sense of gendered self.

And I don't think that any kind of statement that testosterone is evil, or perceived proximity to men is evil, or what have you, is helping.


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