so unironically i think it might have been these two videos, and like the whole genre of these things that existed around 2010-ish? (also beautiful webcam quality on these specimens lol)
to middle/high school aged me it felt like they were inventing WHOLE NEW instruments. like guitar. but new. guitar 2.🎸🎸
The monome example in particular was very open at the time, and the Max/MSP source code for it was available. especially, the way people talked about it was "you could make this do anything.... the only limit is yourself...." (and your bank account lmao. i still don't have a grid controller) and i think that was especially compelling to me at the time.
I had tried a bunch of creative stuff and bounced off of it, but at the same time found that i was weirdly good at programming? so anything that made it seem like I could still be creative while spending my days in a text editor on a highly underpowered netbook were extra compelling to me. hence videogames, and eventually, building my own little instruments in Pure Data/Chuck/whatever else was free. Instruments is a bit of a loaded term; i was running these out of laptop speakers which mean there was like, 60ms of latency, there was no possible way to play them live... so instead I got used to sequencing everything out of a DAW.
i mean, eventually,,,, i did get a job programming, so the idea of spending more time programming patches then making actual music started to feel sillier and sillier, but at that point i had already developed a taste for what kind of music i liked and wanted to make. (and now that I'm learning analog circuitry i can pretend I'm not programming anymore😈)
these days I feel like I have an aesthetic appreciation for a lot ʕっ•ᴥ•ʔっrn though specific songs that make me go "damn this is cool you should make a whole genre out of this" include
and of course i have an especial appreciation when people combine the two