I have a lot of thoughts on personal things I haven’t quite parsed out yet. Some positive, some negative, but largely neutral. This has been a watershed year for me and it’s not even over yet.
One of those things is on the subject of forgiveness. I’ve made mistakes. I’ve wronged others. And in a way, I’ve even wronged myself. I’m not perfect.
I’ve also been wronged by others, notably by someone I was once close with. I’m still not sure how to process what happened. I don’t know if it warrants forgiveness. Whatever remorse they showed me is simultaneously called into question by their lies and past actions.
If something changed when it came to me, I can only hope the change was for the better. I cringe at the thought of someone else experiencing what I experienced.
Do I forgive? I guess I’m still processing things...
16 hours later
…I guess, now that I think about it, forgiveness means to let go of what happened. Not to try to forget it even happened, or excuse their actions, but to no longer allow what happened to hang over me. I would like to move on and let things be.
Does this count as subchosting Yom Kippur and the High Holidays? It kinda feels that way.