there is a problem that arises
when one is depressed, and also a creative person
where it becomes impossible to create, because one is depressed
and yet one dare not let go of the urge to create, for fear the depression will become total
this loop consumed nearly a decade of my life
and i fear it might consume another if i don't get help
and i can't fucking find anyone who will
this world is full of people who need help
and no one who will give it without demanding too much in return
so we're all spiraling the loop
and waiting for the big flush
mom's coming
she looks pissed