anyway on a lighter note since I'm thinking about religion now, I've joked in the past that I am not spiritual, at all, but I am religious
this is because I am, fundamentally, an agnostic with a baseline policy of "entertaining supernatural theories of things is fine but I won't rest my weight on them when things can be explained by the physical/psychological." that translates to things like, I see coincidence and freak accidents as coincidence and freak accidents. I subscribe to psychological explanations for plurality, fictives, system travel, etc. I am fascinated by things like near-death experiences and certainly hope that there's more to existence than this one mortal life, but I'm not going to disregard my one mortal life and the people in it for a possible better world after this one. also I recognize there are reasons why a god or gods may not make themselves manifest in the mortal plane but I'm still not joining any of their followings unless they come down and personally give me a really good answer for why the world is Like This
BUT DESPITE THAT
I have some mental idiosyncrasies that I can't logically explain. I will very casually say things like "oh, humans are so adorable!
I had an Uber driver ask me if I believed in Jesus today, and I did not know how to explain to her that yes, but not in the way you think.
HORATIO:
O day and night, but this is wondrous strange.HAMLET:
And therefore as a stranger give it welcome.
There are more things in heaven and earth, Horatio,
Than are dreamt of in your philosophy.
I have seen enough in my time to believe there is something, but not enough to know what it is, and indeed, have reason enough to believe it is probably more than unfathomable to any of us.
So whatever you choose to name it, is likely as good as any other answer, whether it's Jesus, Mohammed, or Joe Pesci. Sometimes I pray to the Moon. She's given me about the same odds as everyone else.
We are all just blind men, grasping at the elephant. A universe so vast and incomprehensible that the true answers probably wouldn't even fit in our tiny monkey brains. I don't grudge anyone their own peculiar explanation, only those who would presume to declare theirs the only one, and seek to enforce that belief on others.
We can't even understand our own minds, how could we possibly presume to understand a God's?