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zlchxo
@zlchxo

Bluesky is NOT a safe space for people of color and the only people I see saying that are white.

I just got dogpiled by a horde of literally hundreds of white trans women with massive victim complexes who apparently get off on cyberbullying people they deem transmisogynists or otherwise worthy targets every day of their lives, once the other day and once two weeks ago. Why? Because I made a post directed at two people pointing out that their total indifference to transitions that don't resemble their own was informed by white privilege, and they all decided to take it personally, leaving 70+ replies, most of them namecalling.

They have no account locking even still, so if you end up targeted your best hope is to sit there and take it and wait for it to end. So what protection, what recompense, did the moderators end up offering me? A three day ban for sexual and gender identity based harassment, without citation of specific infringing posts. These people were in my mentions and wouldn't leave! All the people who dogpiled me called me an "incel living in their mom's basement", a "creep", a "bitch", a "crybully", a "meme gender", told me to "choke", block evaded me to harass me more, repeatedly said "you'll never be one of us" and so on, they didn't get anything.

Maybe I said something trollish that crossed the line about stereotypes, I don't remember, but for the most part I resent that what I was doing was gender identity based or harassment, which is of course what they were saying. And the sexual harassment claim I think had to do with poor phrasing informed by character limit, where I was trying to preempt the notion that all trans women are gender-nonconforming and unfortunately used the phrase "secret penis". But I would not call that sexual harassment, let alone targeted at a few people, because I was speaking technically and generally.

It's just definitely part of a pattern on Bluesky (and other platforms). The platform's design encourages mobbing to a degree never seen on Cohost or even Fediverse, unless you yourself are well enmeshed in a large community of dunk artists and dogpilers, the main ones of which consist of white trans women with terrible un-intersectional politics. They call it "an immune response to harassment" yet very clearly go after people who they just don't like or who are inconvenient, goading them into justifying their own harassment; meanwhile, trans people of color have no such clusters and have to do what we've always done when we're uncomfortable- back up and log off. "Safety", as is so often, is used as a way to justify punches down and exclusion.

We are invited to these clusters only in theory. In reality, they are full of people subtextually hostile to us, who have nothing in common with us, never speak to people different from themselves and don't intend to start. People who will employ privileged tears when they are confronted. People who react with scorn when encountering people who are unable to leave the closet due to material circumstances and go "just move to a group house bro", ignoring all the stories of dysfunction and abuse that our white friends and partners have told us and the fact that we are not able to easily find people who will become obsessed with us because we're "just like them" and invite us into their homes. People who imply members of traditional third genders are "cissexual" because they don't take HRT. People who think the end goal of transition is to pass. People who will write quasi-fetishistic posts gushing about "the inner divinity and inherent beauty of a trans woman", when really they just mean their white mutuals on HRT who post nudes. Because people who are both sexually available and loaded with the privilege of being one of the 1-3 white body types the internet types drool over and will extend their comradery towards take primacy.

If you are not sexually and socially available and desirable, you simply don't matter as much; and those regulating who is desirable are immature racist binarists with self-imposed blinders who never interact with anyone outside of their bubble "for safety reasons" and can't handle criticism.


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I couldn't really find your account to get informed on this, but I did find a bunch of folks sharing screenshots that while cherry picked, do kind of make you look worse than you would were I able to read everything in context.

White women in the community definitely do get a lot more deference than they would otherwise deserve, so I can't really fault you in your conclusion.

This part though, "If you are not sexually and socially available and desirable, you simply don't matter as much" isn't a problem with just white trans femmes though, it's just a microcosm of bigger societal issues.

You can't find it because I'm banned lol. Also a lot of the threads are broken because people blocked me or I blocked them. I'm not surprised that I'm the talk of the town though, especially after I got more trollish.

And I agree that it's not a problem exclusive to the trans community, for what it's worth, there's just a lot of hypersensitivity to criticizing it or anything else at all because "why do you hate other trans women?" etc and it's long past time to poke a hole in that and make people more conscious of it because these introverted clusters are, to put it lightly, holding us back.

It feels like the trans community is the only exception to progressive scrutiny. It's bullshit.

I definitely can feel being disillusioned by the community. The fact that I've had more solidarity from cis women than other trans femmes is just how it's gone for me so I don't feel particularly welcomed.

And I don't think you're the talk of the town, but I will say I did want to figure things out and could only get their side there.

I don't really trust a lot to moderation on platforms, not because I think they do a bad job but because they're so dogged by work it becomes impossible for them to provide reasonable transparency.

Hell, it can be even worse if they ID you as white first, because they can start off treating you as they would other people only to revoke the "whiteness" they mistakenly placed on you after you don't live up to those expectations. Definitely has happened to me as a white passing biracial mexican-american.

☀️ Gosh yeah I really have been more interested in befriending general sapphic communities than "The Trans Lesbians". Just more open minded even though in most ways I'm closer to the other archetype. (I was unfortunately in a chat run by furry organizers that had some transmisogyny issues and my current state is even farther from their beauty standards, but they were still, for example, so much more mature and less obsessed with internet gang wars and themselves.)

My concern with Bluesky is it's now a consistent pattern of these same groups of people running mostly people of color off of the website. These gangs literally have what they call "villain of the day" and at these lengths I have to assume that Bluesky doesn't really see the problem.

I teeter on white passing in that I look "ethnic" and being a shut-in makes my skin pale and they use that to bully me about being white.

Listen I always believe in trying to find the original posts to see what happened anywhere on the internet, and since your account is gone I can't see context for what is a reply to what or whatever...but comments like "oh so i'm not the only one saying it! have y'all considered that y'all really are clones just barfing and shitting the same cultural shomit onto each other? because i don't have these problems with all of my friends, who are trans and not creepy white fetishizers looking at yourselves in the mirror!" which just comes off as weird AGP shit and the "secret penis" comment and this "sand country" comment (what the fuck was this)...and then calling POC who argued with you pick mes...you're gonna need quite a bit of Context missing here because all of these posts I see people (who definitely aren't all white) talking about on Bluesky right now look extremely inflammatory.

Regarding "weird AGP shit": First of all please note that I said this after hours of arguing all night after leaving ONE response to a rando who swung around two weeks later and having it blow up into an even bigger shitstorm. Frankly I think this accusation I keep seeing that I was saying other transfems are AGP and therefore fake is loaded with the implication that transfems are incapable of fetishizing transfems unhealthily, even though anyone else is very much capable of it. Tons of people describe themselves as AGP, ironically or meta-ironically or what have you. I have a friend in this very comment section who describes themself as an AGP owed to their unique experience with transfemininity. I have no problem with people finding sexual joy in the act of transition. What I have a problem with is many people in the community choosing to be very weird about a small range of body types they happen to fall into, and those who have those body types, and hiding it behind "just like me". Our community is full of sex pests who are themselves transfem. This idea that someone can't be both a real woman and a fucking creep who fetishizes trans women is a concession to the enemy.

Several months ago I told a transphobe on Reddit, without lobbing so much as a personal attack, that if they really think 68% of trans people commit suicide they should try leaving their little state-imposed bubble in a way that was less than politically correct. Meanwhile, the people accusing me of transmisogyny told me to kill myself, called me a bitch, a meme gender, "you'll never be like us", and so on. The very same person who Googled up my shit to put me on blast retweeted a post along the lines of "we should be more cruel to misogynists" in that same stretch of time. And that was after picking apart my physical appearance so they and their friends could say I'm a white boy. It's hypocrisy on full display.

I don't know how else I'm supposed to handle the people who were arguing against me tbh. All I had said was to two specific people that they should rethink their binarist position and lack of allyship because it was informed by white privilege, and that was too much for The Hollering Hit Dogs Community. That they got trotted out as "nuh uh! these twoc think we're awesome!" without ever addressing my original point was using them (her, one person mostly) completely as a shield for the binarism and white tears they were displaying, and I tried to point this out to her. SHE was the one who came out with "you're calling me a pick me!" when I didn't, and I responded along the lines "maybe stop acting like one".

Hope that's satisfying context. Ngl I don't like having all the "this you? yikes..." relayed back to me on here, the demand for explanations is a bit corny. I don't think you intended to be cruel or anything but I would have greatly preferred if you had asked me politely for more context and said something about the point of my post, which at the end of the day has little to do with the particulars that were discussed.

they should try leaving their little state-imposed bubble in a way that was less than politically correct.

Less than politically correct is a weird way to say "massively, blatantly racist"

Its extremely possible people were being hypocrites to you, though I cannot for a second believe "literally hundreds" of white trans women dogpiled you given that I found only a small number of posts about you at all and mostly from the same handful of people (at least two of whom aren't white), I've been on Bluesky the site just doesn't have that much interaction for that to be true...but all I'm seeing here is you spending hours arguing with people and making a ton of extremely inflammatory posts that would make almost anyone go "What? Fuck off" in response, then acting like you did absolutely nothing to provoke such responses. I don't think the context you just added changes that and I DEFINITELY don't think the racist sand countries comment is excusable with anything even if it was something you said to a piece of shit, and you trying to downplay it as just "not politically correct" is really weak.

My original post alone got over 70 replies without counting QRTs or people who kept tabs on everything and liked all the insults directed at me, so yes it was that many. Again, my original post's crime was referring to the primacy of the desire to become a conformal white woman "and nothing else" in a somewhat sarcastic tone as I asked my question and confronted the white privilege and binarism I saw. I could have said it more eloquently, but then they would have just ignored or blocked me or bullied me more lightly.

And frankly I really don't care about a white person's scolding on acceptable racial discourse presented in the context of essentially silencing a person of color, dismissing their problems with the white-dominated community. It's the same reason I didn't give a shit what the (largely very white-passing) people you're talking about said to me, because it was all in the service of getting my criticisms of their lily-white friends dismissed, and half of them were bullying me anyway. You come out looking bad here confronting me about how I spoke to a transphobe who's white on the US census as if it's not very common to take mildly insensitive jabs at rich imperialist cores and not speaking with me about the pervasive, deep-seated racial issues and inequities in the community that I am highlighting. I would advise you to reconsider.

damn i leave for one second huh
anyways just stating publicly I am Owning my Shit and reporting this exchange like i said i was gonna, karrius in this thread specifically is doing shit I'd qualify as cross site harassment.

beyond that idk im happy for you or sorry that happened

zil ur fine by me <3

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i'm not aware of multiple posts/threads, or you having said you were going to report people? it may have been in a comment thread with someone who has me blocked :o

but yeah i tried not to cross a line, i kept it simple. probably i shouldn't have said anything but i wanted to back up my friend and provide context for readers

it took me a HOT SECOND to figure out why i could only see 11 comments with none of the mentioned tomfoolery on this post- turns out past me had the sagacity to mute a bunch of these people already😊

putting things together from context clues, it sounds like they couldn't take what they dish out.

you all doing alright?