april 👻

i feel really isolated from everyone and i don't know what to do about it

the fact of the matter is that even after trying so much to be better at it lately i clearly dont know how to talk to people or meet new people, because every time it happens either other people do a better job than me in the same space or the people i meet stop talking to me. i will forever get upset at having to put in more effort than the other people i talk to in most cases but im clearly doing something wrong too otherwise i wouldnt feel like this. and idk what it is! i dont know how im meant to know!

anyway. trying not to get too upset about it at the moment. good morning everyone

i think what i am learning (well i already knew but i am learning how true it is) at the moment is that i constantly need to assert my existence and scream that i am real to basically everyone because i will simply disappear from their mind forever when i stop doing that