Programmer, shapeshifter, purveyor of kinks. Born in 1991.
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SFW nerdery (with occasional politics) page is @artie-codecrafter
Thinking about gender identity and people who "always knew" versus people who didn't, and how self-recognition can be not just something like "I am girl" but also something like "girl is me"
You're so right.
I think a lot of questioning my gender has also been questioning gender as a whole. I never really thought that I could be a man until I started deconstructing the idea of what a man is.
Yes! That's exactly what I was trying to get at.
"in me is at least two girls and a boy and a Thing With Eyes and a sharp and shapeless cutting edge and a nameless fire"
as a genderfluid person i feel this a lot. i notice sometimes ill feel kinda negative about identifying as a femboy or woman or man or whatever, and while sometimes that's just how it is, other times i realize its because the particular identity shifted from a freeing thing to a restraint or expectation or too much of a delineation. but sometimes if i let myself take a second look and dissipate certain things then the identity in question can feel good again, like "femboy but its not a limitation" or "woman but also other things"(like when im bigender).
sometimes ambiguous fears or weird anxieties about other people or just approaching a word at a particular angle/positioning it in a particular relative way can trick us into being worried.
