learning to love the insanity in me is hard. i don't want to believe that i am "wrong" for my brain being what it is, but gods... sometimes, it is just hard to decompress how i'm feeling and all too easy to let my emotions take me on a shitty, shitty ride. and when the only prospect of renegotiating that is taking chemicals that potentially close me off from my own thought processes... i don't know. i wish i could just scrub my brain clean of the bad thoughts; but it's not that simple. it never is.
