Genderfucked schizoqueer autistic plural plushie eevee mystics


one of those annoying vegans your unexamined ethical system warned you about


Seer of Blood (Wyatt) and Witch of Void (fractal)


not a person, ΘΔ, tma

this user likes the homestuck epilogues

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...maybe i'm just scared of social media at this point too

too scared of getting yelled at abt "oh you support child molestation because you have a broad acceptance to art" or "oh you're enabling pedophiles by suggesting people don't harass random trans girls without evidence" and it's just

i keep noticing myself retreating further and further away from talking to anyone. even cohost has stopped feeling safe since the whole debacle with getting yelled at by webarkers abt the art thing.

i keep isolating myself more and more from any online spaces except for the discord server i run for like 10 friends and just... not replacing it with anything. not like i have any in-person social circle to speak of. so i just keep leaning on the only people who actually put up with me more and more to the point it becomes a single point of failure that i'd completely collapse if i lost and

i just want to be okay. i don't want to get yelled at anymore. i'm just a random pokémon on the internet who barely feels her actual adult age, why am i stuck in the middle of all this.

and looking at other people who've been through this who are older than me (lexyeevee, for one) having the same experiences for even longer times... what actually changes, does this ever get better.

yeah yeah i know capitalist alienation and leftist theory and all the other stuff about how the problem is capitalism that i know deep and well, but... knowing that's the problem doesn't actually fix it in the short-term. even the weird psychosis that kept me Out Of It is starting to fade away and i just have so little left that i feel like it's going to be a self-fulfilling prophecy if i worry too much about losing what i do have remaining

i just want to be okay. why is that so much to ask for.


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