Mg. Avaris Clari

I still have two unfinished tabletop games, one inspired by a video game that would be for 2-6 players, one that's a single player dungeon crawler. The former requires a lot of art because it's partially a deck builder. But also I have an idea for a management sim tabletop game, but I don't know if anyone would be interested in that.

The management sim isn't a typical one. As per usual, it's me pulling from stuff I know and in this case... It's an ADHD sim. You don't manage a company, you manage a person and it would have multiple people each with a different goal they need to accomplish.

like motherfucker, your "spark" is doomscrolling 16 hours a day while forgetting to eat, i think you'll be ok if you take the pills

I'll be first in line for testing a cure for ADHD if one is ever found. I struggle to afford being able to get medication to the point I haven't been medicated in over 10 years because it's been so long that I have to now go to a psychiatrist and get re-evaluated to prove I even have it.

I've had other people with ADHD tell me it's not a disability. I'm sorry, maybe you're able to push through it better than I am, maybe you have better coping mechanisms and don't even realize that's what you've done, but it absolutely is a disability. And it's an absolute struggle some days to even do the most basic things.

"Oh, you have the disease 'It's Hard to Do Things'?"
"Yes I do."
"Well there's a medication that makes it easier to Do Things."
"That's great!"
"To get it there is going to be many, many things you need to do."
"But...I need the medicine to do things."
"Clearly you're engaging in Drug Seeking Behavior. We will add more things for you to do."
"Can't I just get the medicine in an easy way first then do these things later?"
"No. You must do even more things to get medicine that makes it easier to do things."
"Okay, I have done the things."
"Good. Now you must convince this person that you deserve the medication without it sounding like you want the medication. Did you know "It's Hard to Do Things" often goes hand in hand with "It's Hard to People?"
"I did know that. I also have "It's Hard to People." The doctor thinks I am faking for drugs."
"Start over again."
"But I have the disease 'It's Hard to Do Things'"
[Repeat]

Entirely because of things like this. Not only have they made it difficult, they've also told me they can't trust me with medication because of my depression and I need to go to therapy first before I can get medicated. Sure thing, tell me where I can find a therapist in my area who treats adults with ADHD, Depression, and Anxiety who also isn't a religious therapist. I've found 2 and I've been on waiting lists for 2 years now. Add in that I'm still not even sure I can afford therapy AND medication and even then since it's been so long I'd have to run the gamut of testing different meds until they find the ones that work for me even though I already know Adderall and Ritalin do, but Adderall has been heavily restricted due to drug abuse and Ritalin was too strong on the smallest dose when I last had it. And on top of that I have to be able to do all of this while remembering to do it during the weekday because no one is available at night despite most of us working during normal doctor hours and having to take off our own time to be able to see the doctors which hurts our already limited income which brings me back to whether or not I can even afford to get the help I obviously need. I've also been told if I just exercise more and spend more time outside I'll get better. Y'know what's hard to do when you're overweight and easily distracted?