Creator of Tabletop Archaeology 101, and Hostile Takeover. Bookworm, music nerd. avarisclari at tutanota dot com

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One of the first localized anime movies... Alakazam the Great (Journey to the West) features WINNIE-THE-POOH (Sterling Holloway) AS THE NARRATOR, Peter Fernandez as Alakazam (Son Goku) with FREAKIN FRANKIE AVALON DOING THE SINGING VOICE. It's a whole thing, it's glorious and awful and please watch it if you get the chance. You can hate me later for this.



estrogen-and-spite
@estrogen-and-spite

I'll go first:

So I originally was going to go with Sara. I've always vibed with the name, I used it in video games for my characters constantly, and it just felt right. Also for Sara Kerrigan who's "I'm queen bitch of the universe" line was probably my first experience of gender envy. The problem is at this point Sara had become a character in what was my most popular series at the time so it felt weird naming myself after a character I only retroactively realized was a self-insert of my gender needs.

I next was going to go with Jessica, for Jessica Drew from Marvel - specifically the Ultimate version of the comics. While the Ultimate comic line is largely remembered for being mostly bad and had the one redeeming quality of introducing us to Miles Morales (which 100% is the best thing to come from the Ultimate universe), it also gave us Jessica Drew of Earth 1620 - a clone of Peter Parker who just had the Y chromosome replaced with an X, and also had all of Peter's memories. The character was incredibly trans coded and fascinated me long before I figured out I was trans...but one of my closest friends is Jessica and so it felt weird.

So then I was going to with Rachel for Rachel Summers from the X-Men as well as to give myself a name that tied me to my Jewish origins but then someone asked "Can I call your Rach?" and the sound of that shortening was so very much not a vibe that I dropped the name entirely.

Then I remembered Sylvia. Sylvia Dawngard was a character of mine in a long running FATE game I was playing with friends at the time. While not my first TTRPG character to be a woman - that was a Sara - Sylvia was the one that gave me gender euphoria. A changeling in a world were that meant "Human who got abducted by fae and was raised by them," Sylvia was the champion of the long forgotten Autumn Court of fae and over the course of the game came to weild the Eclipse Hammer (which I now have tattooed on my arm) and just was one of my favorite characters I've ever played. She also was constantly torn between her fae upbringing and human nature, not feeling like she fully belonged in either world, which only changed when she met her Nephilim girlfriend Kohabiel and together they formed a new home and... yeah, I loved that character.

Equally importantly there's no shortening of that name I dislike. Syl, Sylvie, Vee, Via, Lyv, Sylv, basically any version of the name worked perfectly for me.

So yeah, that's my story. What's yours?



MollyRhiodise
@MollyRhiodise

I had a dream where I was further along in transition and everyone called me Molly. It felt so euphoric that I remembered it and felt whole after waking up, so I kept it.


incrediblefrown
@incrediblefrown

and i was picking a name for a character in a terraria clone (remember starbound? yeah, me neither) and i went with haley, because i was just reading order of the stick and it had only then occured to me "oh, haley like the comet. i get it." i got the satisfied "this is a decent name actually" feeling so it was fresh in my mind when i sat down to make a short list of names to switch to. (the other two were riley and emma. i never liked the fem equivalent to my old name so that wasn't on the table.) (i probably would have gotten sick of riley. emma would have been okay, though, i think)

i stuck with haley for a couple reasons. i reach for astronomy a lot when naming things so there's an on-themeness to it. ("but you don't spell it like the astronomer and the comet" correct.) one of the earliest clear memories i have is being on the road late at night with my parents and seeing a comet and going "oh wow, hailey's comet". ("you're not old enough to have seen hailey's comet. you're almost certainly thinking of hale-bopp." correct.) (...wait i spell haley like hale! ha!! i fixed it!!! i'm a geniouse, actually) and i heard a quote that was like "everyone's favorite sound in the english language is the sound of their own name" and my reaction was to go 'good idea-i should pick based on which sounds i like better in a vacuum'

it was a while after i had settled on it, but my mom, who had mentioned previously that she regretted naming me after a family member she didn't particularly like and who is excommunicado these days, said 'haley' reminded her of a guy named hal from her childhood who did some looking after her and who she remembers much more fondly than her actual parents, so it works out on a lot of levels.


indigoblooper
@indigoblooper

so Pokemon Ultra Sun and Moon had just come out and I had decided I would explore my new found Vague Gender Feelings TM through that and I went with just the first name that felt good and Mara Wilson was p big in the area of Twitter I was on at the time so Mara as a name just kinda came forward from the Brain Goop first at that time


avarisclari
@avarisclari

But yeah my name actually was just... made up. I used it as an online handle for years and it became stuck in my head as "me" and so that's how I became Avaris.