𝔞𝔷𝔲𝔯𝔢𝔩𝔬𝔯𝔢 𝔤𝔴𝔢𝔫𝔡𝔬𝔩𝔶𝔫 𝔨𝔬𝔯𝔯𝔦𝔤𝔞𝔫 🕷️🍂

yes. i don't know a nicer way to put it than i am significantly dumber than i was a year ago. i already had some severe...

here i am searching for words that are gone, again.

at my best now i feel like i've just woken after three hours of sleep then been hit on the head with a hammer.

it's hard to cope.

and then there's the breathing trouble, and the stomach trouble, and non-stop pain, and the sweating, and the inability to walk more than a few yards now, or even sit up much of the time, and the unending fatigue like i'm twelve fathoms deep. i can't take care of myself anymore.

i wonder every day if it's worth it to keep going.