• he/they

It's a horrible day on the Internet, and you are a lovely geuse.

Adult - Plants-liking queer menace - Front-desk worker of a plural system - Unapologetic low-effort poster

✨ Cohost's #1 Sunkern Fan(tm) ✨

[Extended About]

--
Three pixel stamps: a breaking chain icon in trans colors against a red background, an image of someone being booted out reading "This user is UNWELCOME at the university", and a darkened lamppost.(fallen london stamps by @vagorsol)



I think one of the big things to Get about me is that it is impossible to never annoy me. it is, in fact, very easy to annoy me. closeness to me helps but is no guarantee - everyone, even close friends, is guaranteed to annoy me at some point or another.

and the thing is, this will usually not be the fault of the person who annoyed me. there are legitimate things that I get annoyed by, but I also get annoyed by things like "used a certain (non-offensive) word" or "had an emotion." things that I not only have no reason to be annoyed at, but that I actually might not have been annoyed by yesterday, and won't be annoyed by tomorrow.

one main reason I can discern is that annoyance is a Default Feeling for me. when I am having a feeling that I'm unable to properly sort for whatever reason, it is experienced as annoyance. (the actual feeling might be something more like "hunger" or "overwhelm" or "worry.") another reason is that I've basically inherited our parents' tendency towards bitchiness. this is something I've more or less come to accept about myself, and a big part of why I think a lot about the Logistics of annoyance. patience is an active practice for me, not a trait.


You must log in to comment.