(fallen london stamps by it's so weird because like. as An Transmasc. despite pretending to be a Regular Cis Girl IRL I still find myself silently judging myself for not being Appropriately Masculine. for being soft-voiced, hesitant, and prone to Autism Overwhelms and crying. I wish it could just be okay IRL to be a guy who's kinda sensitive and squishy sometimes
it's in part the knowledge that a lot of my IRL Stuff would suddenly flip from being Normal And Mostly Acceptable to Abnormal And Mockery-Worthy if I dropped the facade, even if I was perceived as a guy by everyone. despite the fact that nothing would have changed about me except that I'm not pretending to be a girl anymore. society just has a long way to go when it comes to being Normal About Guys
