Part of my trick for handling the passage of time is to not think of oldness as inherently disgusting
remember that getting old is a privelege, especially for the f-slur crowd and suddenly the laugh lines and grey hairs become something to be thankful for.
it's a rarity. it's patina. it's provenance. you are fine ironstone china. made to look beautiful and fragile, but never to shatter, despite it all.
Come to think of it, I've mostly dated older women, and now it turns out I get to be an older woman!