This post has content warnings for: mention of suicidal thoughts.
happened to me constantly before i got on antidepressants.
Now I just constantly remember being cringe and i get angry instead?
i'm currently on antidepressants and things are better than before then but i do still get these thoughts fairly regularly
maybe mention that to your doctor. the first medication i was on helped a bit but it took a couple tries to get on something that makes me not want to constantly kill myself.