beth (defunct)

I was so excited! A new girl was starting at my high school in the small town where my single mom and I lived together. I heard she was a goth and former catholic school girl and also she was from japan! She seemed so cool!

Her name was Akane. She was smoking behind the gym. She made out with me with her black lipstick. She tasted like ashes. It was hot. She had red and black hair like flames. Her skirt was black and red plaid and torn over fishnets. Super hot.

I sometimes wished my face skin wasn’t so flawless and pale. People said it made me look like a girl. They bullied me for that and my long raven hair parted in the middle and my long lithe limbs.

I wrote poetry but I only let Akane see it. It was about death. She burned it with her lighter and then made out with me. It was hot

Day 3: Those things are at the door again. I can hear them scratching. I can only hope the steel can stand up against their claws.

Day 5: Food is low, and morale is lower. We sent Jenkins out to scavenge but he never returned.

Day 8: Jenkins is ONE OF THEM now! God, the horror. To think they were all once human... I see now our grand hubris in meddling with these unnatural phenomena.

Day 9: This will be my final entry. The creatures won't take me alive. Farewell, and if you're reading this: be vigilant.

sometimes they call back to tell you they're running late

convinced they made kids who played them dumber, and acted as if that was both common sense and the scientific consensus. He, however, didn't know Flash games were a thing and so I ended up playing a bunch of RPGs and platformers and escape-the-room games on sites like Nitrome and Newgrounds.

I grew up to be pretty interested in video games, but in many cases i've only experienced more recent games. the first console i ever owned was the nintendo switch and the first game i put hundreds of hours into was minecraft.

for example, even though i like the zelda franchise a lot, i sometimes feel like i shouldn't be allowed to have an opinion on it because i've only actually played breath of the wild and the link's awakening remake, and a bit of oracle of ages (or was it seasons) on a secret castoff gameboy from a cousin. (i got stuck on a puzzle where you had to raise and lower the water level in a temple and gave up).

anyway, i think it's interesting that i'm a person my age who plays games but doesn't really have the normal nostalgia for most of the popular games from when i was a kid. first person shooters were huge when i was in middle school--they felt like the one type of game you could be into without being considered a nerd--but the only time i played one was for a few minutes at a friend's birthday party.

i also wasn't allowed to watch tv besides pbs, but i at least absorbed some normal shows from the sundays i used to spend at my grandparents' house, where they had cable and let us watch whatever. (if you let them choose what to watch they'd watch a home jewelry/gem shopping channel where you could call in to order now.)

for some reason, though, besides mythbusters and how it's made, i didn't really like watching live action shows. maybe it was something about awkward adolescence and feeling vaguely uncomfortable in my body. maybe i'd rather see more abstracted images instead of being confronted with human bodies. not sure. but i really didn't watch any shows like icarly or hannah montana even though they were extremely popular with people my age.

i really liked the powerpuff girls and dexter's lab and avatar the last airbender and honestly? pretty good taste, child me. i think those honestly all hold up.