really hope they do end up putting me on the sleepy squishy pills and that when that happens they work correctly and also don't make me too sleepy and squishy 🥺
specifically, hope that they tone down The Fear enough that i can just like ... make myself sit down and Learn A Thing which i am extremely aware i could pretty easily pick up if like someone else was working with it and running into issues and i was trying to help out but which the prospect of Trying To Learn On Purpose just causes me to panic and shut down
iunno i hear that odds of them working overall are like maybe 60% but 🤞🤞🥺