anyway i accidentally started thinking too hard about semiconductor device physics and was abruptly reminded of why i failed out of grad school
it was because every time i would start to work on anything i would immediately start falling down the “having a complete and integrated understanding of why the thing is the way it is” hole and like in practice at various points i did understand all the things but my brain is absolute not large enough to hold all of the things in working memory at once so i can plug them into each other lmao
i mean also my mental health situation was Dire and wasn't being handled at all and a bunch of other stuff but like that was the big one
i mean also my mental health situation was Dire and wasn't being handled at all and a bunch of other stuff but like that was the big one