But I find myself not wanting to ever share them in larger public spaces. Our modern ability to connect with large groups of strangers creates this weird yearning to declare what side of conflicts we are on. We need everyone who will listen to know that actually it's like this.
It's weird because like, most of my Thoughts that I have about Stuff ultimately pertain to things entirely outside my sphere of influence. I see someone who is also not directly connected to that Stuff who I think is having Wrong Thoughts and it makes me want to share my Thoughts.
But I'm wrong too! Probably. Things and Stuff are super complicated and nuanced and impossible to perfectly categorize and solve. God forbid someone agree with my shitty Thoughts and go on and repeat them to others.
I used to say I don't post about Stuff because internet weirdos will track me down and read me in bad faith. But after many years of not Posting about Stuff, I think the truth is that I have a tiny little circle of people and relationships whose lives I have direct effect on.
These are people I can talk to and share things with and learn things from.
Outside of sharing directly personal experiences, sending my philosophy out into the vast public ocean outside of my little circle just feels unproductive.




