by which I mean going indie full time rather than leaving this job specifically. no matter how much runway I've saved up the prospect of running out and having to call it and get a day job again would terrify me, and if that day actually came I would probably uh. not handle it well. I was up crying past 2am last night and all I am here is just another user, if it were me in staff's shoes best case scenario I'd be completely nonfunctional for like a week