Hi Ninevah! @ninevehgames Thanks for your question.
I’m sorry your going through this. That’s very scary and disheartening. ☹️ Weighing that balance of “I need to get this transition care that I need” and “I need to appease anti-trans authority figures” is absolutely the fucking worst and it’s absolutely not right that you’re forced to weigh those two things.
Here’s my disclaimer: I have done readings that have been proved definitively wrong before. Things can go askew over here on my cat bed of rock reading. So please take my rocks’ info with a grain of salt—you understand your situation better than they do.
I didn’t get a clear answer from the rocks over here. The pink rock indicates the most important part of the answer, and the rock closest to it is a blue rock that stands for introspection. I have a few other rocks nearby that to me, just seem to be pointing toward acknowledging your situation. The three rocks above stand for “looking” (which in your case I assume means being surveilled), conflict, and the home, which perhaps together are illustrating your Adversary.
At the bottom, I have a curious stone that stands for inspiration. (Maybe related to the introspection idea.) Not sure what it has to do with what you’re facing.
Sorry to not have better information for you. ☹️ I hope that everything turns out well and you are able to safely pursue transition soon.
