i've been grappling for the last few weeks with how there are infinite amounts of people who desire selfsona designs (me) but finite amounts of original character vibes
like I mean there aren't really finite amounts of character vibes out there, because there's infinite ways to combine, invent, and refine, but I'm the kind of person who always lives the combination of
"takes some comfort in knowing that I am not particularly unique and therefore have similar people to reference and understand myself from" and "ok yeah but I want to do something that I've never seen before (in conclusion, fund my Choro Q Yakuza fangame)",
and what I'm saying is that I have a poor vision for my own selfsona except for This Person This One Is It (they are a vtuber I follow for racing game content and technically they follow me on twitter and I'm half scared to death they'll see this through a profile link and a language barrier somehow
but not so scared that I won't post. and also hi if you see this and this is you. your design is very good and I like your videos. thank you for doing them)
but since that I've seen this design I Can't Do This Design
and so the pendulum swings to "I don't want to make a design that's just like one design I saw, but I think if I go find like 20 designs that are all pretty similar to this maybe I'll feel comfort in numbers"