i love my sister and i love hanging out with her!! really wild to be bombarded with the "what the fuck is wrong with me why am i the only person who thinks like this" so frequently over the past couple months and then i hang out with my sister who's cool and nice and despite how distant we were growing up, we've ended up with the same neuroses that reminds me "ah right, right, we were both brought up in the same traumatizing environment and so it makes sense that we developed the same kinda of defense mechanisms around reading emotional non-verbal cues and rebuilding our value systems from scratch" so maybe im not alone :)

