celechii

known cat petter

  • they/she

genderfluid dumbass full of love amongst other things

i make games at ko_op :)

cat counter: 291 (record: 523)


game makin streams
twitch.tv/celechii
@chocolatinebabe (ffxiv account (fishing))
cohost.org/chocolatinebabe

celechii
@celechii

genuinely feels so funny and bizarre that every night when i get ready for bed and take my hormones, i have to look at the androcur ive cut up and decide which fucked up portion i want to take and how vulnerable to mood swings and inexplicable depression i want to be the next day. that shit is so potent. i take a quarter of a pill and cut it with this old pill splitter i got from my friend and sometimes you just fucking shatter it, sometimes you try to split it down the middle and somehow end up with a third thats too brittle to cut any more, and sometimes you get it just right enough that it'll be the same size as the other ones you've cut so that whatever you're taking at least it's consistent


celechii
@celechii

ok last night i thought "ive got therapy at 11am so i should take the most even dose" and then proceeded to have almost a full 8 hours of sleep but kept waking up from nightmares every 30-45 minutes from 2am onwards?? now i feel like shit and im like cmon brain chemicals wtf do u want from me. drink more water?? maybe



genuinely feels so funny and bizarre that every night when i get ready for bed and take my hormones, i have to look at the androcur ive cut up and decide which fucked up portion i want to take and how vulnerable to mood swings and inexplicable depression i want to be the next day. that shit is so potent. i take a quarter of a pill and cut it with this old pill splitter i got from my friend and sometimes you just fucking shatter it, sometimes you try to split it down the middle and somehow end up with a third thats too brittle to cut any more, and sometimes you get it just right enough that it'll be the same size as the other ones you've cut so that whatever you're taking at least it's consistent



celechii
@celechii

once my life has chilled some more im excited to have the passive brain space to start going on walks and taking photos again. ive had the "pretty things in decay, decay as pretty things" theme deeply in my head since like mid 2020 and i was compiling a bunch of pics for it that i want to collect all together and make some art from


celechii
@celechii

first phase is taking a bunch of pictures of pretty things in decay, and decay as pretty things

second phase is printing those pictures

third phase is exposing those pictures to high intensities of elements to accelerate their decay (leaving them out in the rain, taping them to the window to become sunbleached, sticking them to the bottom of my skateboard, freezing and folding them, etc)

fourth phase is combining them together in some form i haven't thought of yet but am excited to do something with that ties them all together. maybe i'll literally just tie them all together lmao