holy FUCK i seriously can't draw a few lines without feeling like ass
like i'm able to actually draw, and i know i've objectively significantly in the past 5 years. i know i am capable of drawing, but the slightest flaws makes me want to scrap everything, even for sketches or stuff i draw not to put out. even when a drawing looks good, i can't bring myself to finish it and i don't know why. i really wish i enjoyed drawing but there's a poison preventing me from doing so and it fucking sucks.