n. lyn-marie charlene excelsia

been thinking about it, and with today being the last day of EVO registration, i think that if i DO end up going, it will be as a spectator. i haven't been to EVO since Marvel vs Capcom 3 was the hot new relevant game, and that was back when i actually lived in Vegas. a big part of me wants to go specifically just to see friends, and maybe say hi to family, so i think i can accept just spectating.

as much as i want to compete in the first Melty Blood @ EVO, i simply can't afford it nor do i have the time with everything i have on my plate. so here's to hoping the game shows up again next year?

decided to push harder today on my jog to downtown and... wow this jogging thing is hard huh??? 🥵

today is definitely a day where i felt the Grind paying off. i was able to push myself really hard today and recover quicker than usual. giving me those good good Brain Feels. now i've just gotta make my way back home with a nice power walk. :)

P.S. 2000s deathcore still undisputed best workout music

the hardest part of being full time and on deadlines isn't even the actual work for me. it's how much harder it becomes to work on my own projects. i have so much stuff i believe in and it's taking forever to get it showable because i'm constantly working on other games to make ends meet. :(

i know i don't really show it much nowadays, but it is truly killing me how long it's taken to make Bullet Sorceress, and especially Joylancer. life really comes at you fast, especially when you always have so much on your plate.

i'm thankful i'm even able to get by on my art, but i can't escape the feeling that people have lost faith and interest in me as an actual game developer because of how quiet i've had to be on that front. it eats a little bit away at my mind every day, several times a day...