Chimerelda E. Error, layabout

I’ve got a simple philosophy that I think is pretty good. I think it should be harder to see sexual content accidentally, and easier to see it on purpose.

honestly though. i struggle to see a world in which my life would have been anything but worse if i'd been cut off from that stuff prior to being 18. add an extra 4-6 years to how long it took me to figure out how queer i was honestly. also add an extra 4-6 years of having a really weird relationship with sexuality and feeling guilty and uncomfortable about having a sexuality at all. you know how i learned about the importance of consent? that it's ok to be nervous about sutff? that shit takes time to figure out and it's ok to be super awkward the whole time? fuckin, reading other peoples' honest discussions about sexuality online that's where. and hot fanfics.

hell i distinctly remember the first depiction of a healthy lesbian relationship i saw with positive relationship dynamics, partners working with each others' struggles of depression, a level of intimacy and trust in a way i had never seen from my own parents because of divorce n' shit. and it was a fuckin' porn comic. that had an impact on how i saw the world and what i considered normal.

not everyone's journeys are like mine, not everyone's journeys would've been made worse without access to this stuff. but there's a lot of other people like me out there.

i dunno what the right answers are. ive thought about this a fair bit and it's a fuckin hard topic that feels a bit beyond me. but whatever the answers are, criminalizing it ain't it.

in the current storm of republican legislatures gleefully labeling as "porn" (and then summarily banning) sex education materials as objectively titillating as reading "dick steele" out of the phone book and giggling, the willingness of people even on the nominal left to conflate "making pornography theoretically available to curious teens who look for it" with "deliberately showing pornography to children" worries the absolute shit out of me.

im just not sure where this hypothetical child who sees weird purrnography and is scarred fur life actually exists except outside the rhetoric of republicans

i mean idk i was online from a real young age and i saw plenty of [redacted] and [redacted] and i think the worst you can say happened as a result of that is i became an adult who still has an interest in [redacted] and [redacted] which is only a purroblem to the type of people who think that anyone that Thinks Weird should be executed

whereas the stuff that actually makes my life harder like neuroses and purranoia and panic attacks and episodes of psychosis are largely a result of what happens to anyone with a mental illness growing up in america

It's actually shocking to me now that obscenity laws as written have ever led to any court outcome that wasn't "if I think it's meant to make people horny, it's obscene." I have no confidence that an obscenity case won't be brought in the next 5-10 years where the judge looks at something you'd find in any indie comic store and calmly hands down the opinion that it appeals to the prurient interest (has horny pictures) describes sex in a patently offensive way (clearly it's offensive by the standards of any healthy American community), and lacks serious literary, artistic, or political value (just a bunch of bad dick jokes) and nobody with political power wants to sound the alarm at the risk of being called a sex freak.

Especially since the outcome of that would probably not be "all porn is illegal now" but rather "is all porn illegal now? we just don't know! make some and find out! you rolls the dice, you takes your chances! Probably don't do anything gay." Pornhub will still be fine, maybe, but that indie comic store is going down hard.