In other news I just got home from a conference in New Zealand, had the time of my life, presented and talked research, and grabbed lots of sea pics. Of course.
posts from @circlejourney tagged #life and times
also:
crunch time makes you lose your marbles
Having a project that every other Toyhouse user knows is a weird feeling because 95% of the time I don't feel it at all, it's super abstracted away from my awareness. But then I'll push a buggy update and suddenly there's 20 people in my inbox asking what's going on, or I'll do a search of my name on Twitter and see that complete strangers have been making memes about it
Some people just call the editor Circlejourney. Like they don't know that that is someone's handle, Circlejourney = the editor. This is super funny to me but honestly also kinda cool. Yes please know me by my work and not by my person (half joke but. You know...)
I don't know how Normal of an experience this is, but I haven't fully wrapped my mind around people in certain spaces seeing me as an minor celeb / someone they look up to. Recently, I joined an OC Discord server where I only knew one person, but at least half the people there knew me. Some of them said it was like meeting a celeb. Which...wait, me?
They were all familiar with my code editor, and I guess I can see that this thing gets 1,200 unique users a day, so objectively in certain circles, there's bound to be users around whom I'll bump into.
But then there's also been multiple instances of people being nervous to talk to me, or expressing especial excitement that I had complimented their work (phrased in a way that indicated they meant me specifically)... Which is another thing that boggles my mind, because I don't feel like a person who has "earned" being seen that way, and I don't think I ever will, haha.
I take it as a compliment, because it means people are enjoying the stuff I do and generally like having me around (I think?). It does feel good, I won't deny, to know that there are people out there enjoying my work whom I've never met and possibly never will.
But most friends know that I don't have a single bone of conceit or self-importance...so I don't think that this affects my self-perception at all. I still doubt my skills on a daily basis. Maybe that's part of why I don't feel like the person on the receiving end of those sentiments.