Circle🧭

I've been thinking about migrating my deeply fragmented online output to my website. From tweeted doodles to any Tumblr blog post worth remembering to whatever is on my Imgur that I can still salvage. I just...would really like to have it all in one place, you know?

I could not even begin to tell you how much there is, nor estimate the file space I'd need. But this would be a massive undertaking, possibly involving thousands if not tens of thousands of files, and it's one that I'd like to automate to whatever degree I can. I can probably scrape my own profiles for text, and autogenerate thumbnails with PHP. but the hard part is actually figuring out how I'm going to tag and display it.

I'd almost definitely do with Laravel, though this would necessitate setting this on a subdomain (possibly new.circlejourney) but that means I'd have to get back to updating it.

It'll happen eventually. I think. I'm just tired of hunting everywhere for my own works, lol.

I don't know how Normal of an experience this is, but I haven't fully wrapped my mind around people in certain spaces seeing me as an minor celeb / someone they look up to. Recently, I joined an OC Discord server where I only knew one person, but at least half the people there knew me. Some of them said it was like meeting a celeb. Which...wait, me?

They were all familiar with my code editor, and I guess I can see that this thing gets 1,200 unique users a day, so objectively in certain circles, there's bound to be users around whom I'll bump into.

But then there's also been multiple instances of people being nervous to talk to me, or expressing especial excitement that I had complimented their work (phrased in a way that indicated they meant me specifically)... Which is another thing that boggles my mind, because I don't feel like a person who has "earned" being seen that way, and I don't think I ever will, haha.

I take it as a compliment, because it means people are enjoying the stuff I do and generally like having me around (I think?). It does feel good, I won't deny, to know that there are people out there enjoying my work whom I've never met and possibly never will.

But most friends know that I don't have a single bone of conceit or self-importance...so I don't think that this affects my self-perception at all. I still doubt my skills on a daily basis. Maybe that's part of why I don't feel like the person on the receiving end of those sentiments.

So, when you hear a random person (not a performer) singing to themself in public, e.g. on the street or in a shop, how does that make you feel? Does your reaction ever include annoyance (and under what circumstances)?

Yesterday's directory dive made me very aware of the amount of stuff I just...make and forget. A personality quiz that generates a virtual room layout based on answers to questions like "If you could do anything now, what would you do?". A star diagram maker that got moderately popular in Mexico for some reason. A blog of life anecdotes "written by" the main character of Voca.

How am I gonna document all of this. What else am I forgetting.