although me starting running was kind of an extended “joke” after watching the horsegirl anime, i have discovered that I Do Not Actually Want To Become The Fastest Horsegirl Idol In All Of Japan. i just kind of want to vibe.
waking up and immediately having dumb self-imposed pressure to run faster and improve each day was kind of wack. instead, i really enjoy just waking up and going at my own pace, listening to whatever music i want to, and pushing myself to Feel It but not burning myself out by the time i’m done. this morning, i just went out and did exactly that, and i’ve found that i feel energized rather than drained and tired.
HOWEVER, i do like the idea of timing myself to improve every month or so often to see how much i improve over time slowly. it’s kind of like getting one big dopamine hit every month, rather than having to grind tirelessly each time to get smaller ones. much more fun and healthy.
already today, i could feel myself enjoying running a lot more. during the time of covid (still ongoing at the time of this writing lol), being inside so much makes my brain Bad. running in the morning like this when there’s basically no one out while i get to enjoy nature and music is really therapeutic, almost like a daily meditation. it’s nice! maybe try it! maybe even try it late at night!! (will test this soon…)