So did I ever tell you all about the friend that got me to transition?
I was talking to a friend about being trans and expressed my fear I would be an ugly woman. Now, I’d shared that fear before, and everyone had told me not to worry, and I’d be beautiful, and I just couldn’t believe them because dysphoria.
This friend though instead said what I needed to hear.
“You’re already ugly. At least you’d be a woman.”
And that sounds harsh but it was what I needed. Because the reality was I was miserable. And transition might fix that, even if I still felt ugly.
And you know what?
I now, some days, believe my partners when they say I’m beautiful. Some days I do feel pretty. But on the days I can’t believe it?
I’m still mostly happy. And I’m still a woman.
And that’s worth it.
