I've always felt like my nonhuman self is incredibly vague.
I know that I wouldn't be human, or completely human if given the chance to make myself like how I really am, how I believe I should be.
I'd have a tail, sharp teeth, be able to switch between bipedal and quadrupedal stances comfortable, and my feet wouldn't be plantigrade. But besides those vague ideas I've never been able to pinpoint specifics.
What kind of tail?
What kind of teeth?
What kind of feet?
Is that simply because I have not found it yet, or because it's not there at all? I don't know.
Am I a mix of different creature parts and that is why I cannot focus on specifics? Are they only temporary additions to myself from being some kind of shapeshifter and so are not part of me constantly?