although we're feeling more and more like we might just pull the plug on our unfunny bird site page quite soon, we also just kinda wanna.... infodump the last month and a half of our character development on there?? especially since there's several people we know that are still active there and we haven't quite had the chance to fully explain the last month yet. also there's only like two irl friends who follow that account and i'm much around them irl nowadays and we trust them enough to get the full brain brrr experience if they even see it i'm gonna think of it over dinner, but.... the fuck it we ball is strong
i'm now realizing that the third point on here is something i haven't really talked about on here either, so uh.... yea. i'm working on finding a new name. might post more about it later (including the anecdote of the other nerds in this head reacting to my gap solution), but it's late and i'm gay, so you'll just have to wait~
so i kinda wrote out everything i wanted to say in a proper word document, but... turns out, i've been logged out of my computer twitter at some point during the night! i'm still logged on through my phone, and there's no suspicious activity i've noticed, so afaik the bird site is just doing bird site things. we've also forgotten the password, but the e-mail our account is connected to is on my old phone and we need to pull it out and charge it if we want access. in other words, we're either waiting until tomorrow to do that (it just passed midnight here), or we pull out our phone and type (points up) this out, which, at midnight with classes early tomorrow.... nah. so big ball moment coming tomorrow, but anyway character development shorter version above (imagine being able to write short, couldn't be me)
(also yes i probably should've explicitly included that i (the demonex) exclusively use it/its now, but eh. i'm eepy and i'll probably fix it tomorrow.)
transcript below here (box parenthesis and ellipses used to denote tweet splits):
ayo nerds so we’ve not been the most active on twitter recently (cough cough at localdemonexlillia on cohost(subject to change, i’ll explain)), but the last month and a half has been the most character development we’ve had literally since [...] i realized i was trans and had to come to terms with that, and we felt like talking briefly about what we’ve found out. so, there’s three main points.
1: i don’t consider myself human anymore. [...] like sure, i still ride around in a human-shaped flesh vessel, but in terms of both self-identity and self-image, i see myself as a demon. the degree of inhumanity tends to flux (some days i’m essentially a funny humanlike, [...] while other days we’re almost feral in here), but it’s always there. and it feels so good to acknowledge?? it feels like a practical extra layer of gender, and i love it.
2: turns out we’re plural! we kinda discovered this by accident [...] one day, when i, trying to get a feel for a bestial body image, accidentally got one of my headmates to front for a few minutes. we were out walking, but fortunately this little incident happened at a relatively safe stretch of road. [...] a couple weeks and some at first inconsistent and then consistent communication later, and we’ve eventually confirmed that, including me, there’s at least three of us in this head. both of them are primarily non-verbal/non-lingual [...] which means i get the fun task of doing most language tasks for us (thanks nerds, love you too~), but we’re figuring it out. if nothing else, our cuddle piles are incredible so far.
3: i’m looking to find myself a new name. [...] although i still appreciate the name lillia, and i’ll be stuck with it as my legal name for a good while (either that or my deadname, and fuck the idea of going back to that), it has just... felt much less appropriate for me [...] over the last year or so, and with the encouragement of my headmates, i’m just gonna try to find something else for myself.
... of course, since i have the executive function of a leaf, i have not quite found anything yet.
this is what [...] we could probably call a bit of a situation. i’ll probably mention if i find a new name, and if you need to i’ll still answer to lillia (it’s a good name, just not really mine anymore), but preferably for now? [...] i’ll go with “the demonex”. it’s nice, quite gender/species, and (as they joked about when i first decided on it) both my headmates did the same before they settled on names. [...]
and... that’s kinda it for now? at this point idk if we’ll be leaving the bird site in the near future or not (cohost at start of this thread, quite active there), but either way we just wanted to talk about recent realizations. [...]
hope y’all are doing alright,
-the demonex previously known as lillia