are we a day late on this post again? yes. will we keep being late with these posts? of course~
anyway, guess who essentially has had a march 2: electric bogaloo.
no seriously. we might've spent the first week and a half sick, but this may has been so good for us? not only have we really gotten to explore what plurality means for us and started to explore us as individuals (both within and outside our body), but it feels like hrt is either starting to really kick in or we're finally noticing the effects that've been building up. all good stuff, and we're doing quite well~
(we've detailed some stuff below the break, just note that it includes some body talk and a mention of horny)
first off? our body sits more comfortable on us than ever before. idk if it's just e starting to do its work and helping our brain with processing our physical shape or said shape becoming closer to what our brain wants, but either way? we can look at ourself in the mirror and be like "yea, this looks like it could be us". it feels so good. and yes, we've still got a way to go before we reach a "goal body", whatever that'll turn out to be, but as it stands, that feels like a feasible goal instead of a dream. we're getting there. i'd add some more on this, but in short: we're kinda still figuring things out internally with body goals and such, and i know nidhogg wants to write something on our body images, so i'll leave it here at we're incredibly happy~
as for specific physical changes? all the chest pains have paid off. we have fucking TITS. booba, if you would. and ghrtijgrgergijgrggijtfgrgkoed it feels so amazing to be able to say that?? they're not that big yet, but they're there, they're noticeable, and based on this morning they might still have some growth fuel in the tank. i sure hope so. anything is a happy time at this time, and i probably need to spend a little less time playing with- nah. we grew our own tits. we can play with them all we want~
... there's also been some changes to our libido, which is what that last point before the break was about. simply put: it's somewhat back. not quite as strong as before e, but it's there. and we're all feeling it. even better, we're all feeling it in different ways. for the last couple months we've all more or less gone "oh yea we're ace" in our own ways, but now... we don't quite know yet. we had enough trouble trying to figure out attraction when we were one, but now we have three nerds with some clear differences. i fear to see how r2 might react if/when we get on prog. more fun self-exploration stuff!!
so yeag. that's pretty much it. we're gonna at least do another one of these to mark half a year next month, but from there... maybe. possibly. not sure. might still? this is something fun to write out, even if i end up rambling a little (never ask the audhd demon to be short-descriptive about something it loves to talk about), and being visible and happy about what's going on feels like something we all need nowagays. so... yeag. good pride month, y'all.
