this plushie shark can fit so many critters in it

whoop, that day went fast. and turbulent. we were planning on doing stuff, but then our brain lost focus completely. we had a nice hour or so of trying to calm ourselves down enough to focus on the things we wanted to do, but by that time we had to help prep for dinner (which of course was one of the slightly more complexer dinners today too). and although we know it's because our brain is wired in this way, and that it's starting to feel way more explicitly "brain go brrrrr" with hrt (thankfully) clearing up a lot of our depression and dysphoria (so that the brain architecture being the root of this is a lot clearer to us) and rewiring our brain and making our old coping/masking tactics less effective, but a a a a a. still sucks to not get to do the thing we wanna do, have to deal with a minor meltdown from the raw amount of mental energy we spent first spinning our mental wheels to get going and then making food, and just for salt not even spending that wait time on other stuff we also really wanna do. aaaaaaa.