💿 shoutout to being the neutral party for in system drama, especially when its drama years in the making from before we realized we were plural
its fun when everyone knows the argument theyre having is just souring us on something we really wanna do and are enthusiastic about but everyone feels too strongly about a specific part and its something we did not expect this much of a reaction to but here we are c':
🌶️ the drama has cooled off slightly rn, and although i fear it's just for now (this is stuff tied both closely to our individual self images and how we want our physical body to present, with varying, contradicting, and intense opinions from several of us, me included), we're all at some degree of agreement for now. and hugging each other. we've been rather emotional about this whole thing, in not entirely healthy ways.
turns out the combination "releasing the neurodivergence mental blockages" and "hrt-induced second puberty emotional swings" can cause us to get incredibly worked up about stuff! and having to solve internal arguments can also be rough when we end up leaking our opinions between each others (shoutout to having no notable train of thought barriers) and as a result we just hard reaffirm ourselves on our original point. or at least that's what i did.
we all want this one project to work out. we all love the idea we have, and we can agree on like 95+% of what we want it to look like. i just didn't expect i would have this kind of reaction like i had yesterday over those remaining details. [🐲 And I did not expect having such a counterreaction to the Demonex either, just for the record. We're... There's a lot that we've all internally swept under the rug for now, partially in regard to our physical body and how we want to shape it, and things got really heated. Although it's my and Luna's idea that we might run with, we're gonna have to find ways to handle this in the future. Because this will continue to come up between us.]
anyway, we're gonna go do some physical maintenance stuff. we're probably gonna be a massive cuddle pile while doing so. good times