this plushie shark can fit so many critters in it

big thanks to everyone for the well wishes yesterday. we're... probably not okay yet, and it's gonna take a good while before we think we can call ourselves that (we might be going home for the next weekend, depends a little on how we're feeling when it gets closer but we already know going home's gonna be crushing), but we're starting to sort out our emotions a little. either that, or we might just be burying ourselves in other activities to drown out the grief for a little while. not completely sure yet. might be both. emotions and grieving is a fuck at the best of times. at least we feel we're past the worst of the shock, but we're not okay yet. letting our mind drift away from other tasks just brings things out again we think we're more or less distracting ourselves a lot at once before taking a little bit of time at a time to process everything. dunno if it's the best way to handle this, but it has worked so far today. plus, we finished a book that has been in the backlog for like two years! and laughed while doing so! we're doing our best. we're not okay, but we think we're figuring out how to live with it.