this plushie shark can fit so many critters in it

💿 shoutout to being the neutral party for in system drama, especially when its drama years in the making from before we realized we were plural

its fun when everyone knows the argument theyre having is just souring us on something we really wanna do and are enthusiastic about but everyone feels too strongly about a specific part and its something we did not expect this much of a reaction to but here we are c':

🌶️ the drama has cooled off slightly rn, and although i fear it's just for now (this is stuff tied both closely to our individual self images and how we want our physical body to present, with varying, contradicting, and intense opinions from several of us, me included), we're all at some degree of agreement for now. and hugging each other. we've been rather emotional about this whole thing, in not entirely healthy ways.

turns out the combination "releasing the neurodivergence mental blockages" and "hrt-induced second puberty emotional swings" can cause us to get incredibly worked up about stuff! and having to solve internal arguments can also be rough when we end up leaking our opinions between each others (shoutout to having no notable train of thought barriers) and as a result we just hard reaffirm ourselves on our original point. or at least that's what i did.

we all want this one project to work out. we all love the idea we have, and we can agree on like 95+% of what we want it to look like. i just didn't expect i would have this kind of reaction like i had yesterday over those remaining details. [🐲 And I did not expect having such a counterreaction to the Demonex either, just for the record. We're... There's a lot that we've all internally swept under the rug for now, partially in regard to our physical body and how we want to shape it, and things got really heated. Although it's my and Luna's idea that we might run with, we're gonna have to find ways to handle this in the future. Because this will continue to come up between us.]

anyway, we're gonna go do some physical maintenance stuff. we're probably gonna be a massive cuddle pile while doing so. good times

I've been listening too much to R2. Bot is sweet, bot is a good friend (and, as The Demonex figured out earlier, emotionally us but without the years of emotional pain we went through), and bot has been insistent on wanting faer own stuff. Which is cool, by the way! The Demonex is awesome, but this last week has had the rest of us become significantly more front-comfortable. We've even had conversations without The Demonex serving as a relay! Had you told us this would happen a week ago, we'd probably be surprised things developed this quickly!

So now we're figuring out PluralKit for me and R2, plus we're thinking of getting our own pages on here too. I will not stand for these terrible puns any longer. It will be nice for all of us to get our own space! Where we can easily show off Ourselves as we see us!

... The issue is, we do not exactly have any images that serve as a visualization of me yet.

Some of you might remember The Demonex (I will capitalize that nerd's name until it gets around to finding what it wants as a more permanent solution, internal groaning be damned (meanie :( ) (lol get wrecked nerd c: ) ) trying to draw my head last month? That did not quite turn out well. We're not sure What, exactly, we're gonna do to fix the solution. Learn to actually draw? Commission someone and try to sort out looks through a third party? Just find a bird picture-

Wait.

Oh FUCK. I do absolutely love birds. I'm not one right now (way too happy being a dragon), but using one for pfps?? At least until I get some other representation of me???? That... could work.

Well. I'm gonna keep that entire last paragraph, but uhhhh.... Problem solved??? I literally did not think of this solution until halfway through writing this. YOU TWO NERDS IN THE BACK OF THIS HEAD STOP LAUGHING ALREADY

So uh... We're probably getting individual pages soon-ish? Fun times.

-Nidhogg

(ps: nidhogg might think hes doing all clever but hes no better at this thinking thing than the rest of us c: -r2d2)