recently, there were several posts about being mixed race that ended up on my timeline. i have been wanting to add to this discussion for months now, but opening up about this is a scary process; i don't know how it's gonna land with people and i don't know if my takes on this are at all valuable or correct. while i'm already in my "fuck it" era of posting, i figured i might as well share it. hopefully it means something to people.
so.
i had a friend once, who i thought was a really close friend, until one day they were abruptly just gone from my friends list and they had blocked me everywhere. i went to ask their partner what happened, who told me that they both really disliked my behavior, which particularly included my "white person takes" they kept reading from me on my Twitter. hearing this from someone who i thought was a friend infuriated me.
it was the catalyst for me to actually start thinking about my family and their history. because i never thought about it before. i never had any opportunity to think about it.
