devilrose

Rosangela Ludovico, at glyph limit

illustration, comics, writing...
and then what next, plague of locusts?


webcomic / The Gifts of Darkness
fansites etc. / Rigelatin
anything else / link page


I play the guitar and sing as a hobby, doing my versions of any favorite song that I have the ability to mess with, just to put my hands in them and appreciate them. I have a steel-string guitar, and I've developed a taste for bringing metal songs to it and playing them acoustic yet violently. More recently my sister gave me a little amplifier with a noisy overdrive button and that's been fun as well.

I'd learned guitar for years as a child, stopped playing for 20 years, then started played again a few years ago. When I first started again, I recorded a few things for fun. I did so by recording each layer separately, which gives ease of balancing the sound. I would like to record some things again, but... I don't know, I don't want to do that kind of process anymore. It's not truthful to how I play normally. It seems like it would make more sense for me to record the nasty version, played and sang at the same time, fuck layers, just me and the wood. But how to get a decent sound then?

It's just, I see the ocean of knowledge that I do not have about this field, and I have some complicated thoughts about that. I would want to know some things, but not that many. I look around, and I see tutorials like, Learn how to become a pro in two weeks if you put all of this effort and -- I don't want that. I stopped playing when I was a kid because it was all exercises for a nebulous future and no immediate joy on the way there. So when I returned as an adult, I specifically stayed away from courses, because I wanted to see what I'd do, discover things freely, and make mistakes that I could own. I wanted to have a hobby that I could do shittily. Yet now I also wish to know more about some things, and I don't quite know how to get to that kind of information without it being a freakin Project once again...

I don't know, there's both fine grain and larger questions here. How much polish can there be between incompetence and fakeness. How much knowledge should I seek between boneheadedness and insecurity. How much should I share between devaluing the moment and preventing myself from having something nice. How to be spontaneous without forcing against my nature. Who even knows?


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