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Pen name: Delila H. Smith (the H is silent). Thirtysomething trans lesbian, snugglemuffin, girlthing. Devil but in like a catgirl sort of way, perennial emotional wreck, too gay for this. Minors, please don't follow.


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Things I dreamed about last night:

  • My family was driving somewhere, due to this big incident with police brutality in New York City that was actually somehow sparking change or revolution or something. It wasn't clear why, but apparently, we were driving to New York.
  • At a stop, I went into this VR world, like I dunno Second Life or Phantasy Star Online 2 or something, where I hooked up with a bunch of antifa dudes who were planning on doing something. In the dream, I wondered how we were going to avoid getting caught by the feds, since we were literally in a game-world run by a corporation.
  • I got a new higher-end computer. The monitor I got for it was supposedly 4K or something, but in the dream I realized I could still see the pixels as if it was still the 1920x1200 I've had before, and for some reason I was having an inexplicable degree of difficulty finding the settings for changing the resolution.


After getting back to sleep, I also had a dream about some kind of movie -- based on an actual movie waking-me saw in a class in high school -- about this squad of soldiers who were out of contact with their own side and had trouble making it home. There was one scene from the movie where they have to avoid a bunch of artillery from their own side because someone read a map wrong; the dream adapted this by having the CO of the squad get out his radio, and said "Blow them the hell up." The dream then proceeded to this whole comedy sequence about the soldiers getting blown up. One part of it was rendered as a cartoon.



The other night I had a dream where the unspecified place my biofamily lived was about to get washed out by a huge fuckoff tsunami. (Why do I keep having nightmares about flooding.) Our strategy was just to fucking sit in place and wait out the water, while getting submerged. However, the dream immediately specified that there was this factory nearby, slightly into the water -- y'know, where you can usually find factories -- and we were worried about averse effects from the polution, so we drove to the next state over. However, our new destination was also right next to an unspecified pollution factory, and also an active volcano, and then I woke up because I had turned on my fan and pointed it directly at me for some reason before going to sleep.