every time i succeed a little it gets taken away from me. every time i feel like i'm starting to get a grasp on things the universe decides i need to be knocked down a peg. i was approaching my first holiday season in 7 years where i won't be destroyed by retail and now i might not really get to enjoy it because i will be off my meds and totally dysfunctional lol. everything gets taken away. i can't have anything no matter how hard i work.

