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Hey it's Drake, 35yo trans pan otherkin goddess hedgederg who will eat your whole universe X3. Mainly playing ffxiv or writing, or chattin folks up.

A pretty 50/50 switch who loves her darling girlfriend @HedgehogGoddess so so much. <3

animated avatar by @ConstellationArtGallery , awesome job! <3

Main character on XIV is Drake Silvos on Coeurl.

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I'm also drakesilvos on discord.


MewMus
@MewMus

A casual reminder that just because someone doesn't talk to you regularly, especially if you want them to be talking to you regularly, doesn't mean they hate you

Human's are complicated, we all have a lot going on and most don't share everything happening in their own lives. Just because someone's company is exciting, comforting or helpful to you, doesn't mean that you are entitled to it or that they should feel the need to spend what energy they have to give to you. This doesn't mean that they wouldn't want to give you their time in ideal circumstances, but circumstances are almost never ideal these days.


verydragons
@verydragons

I live a pretty busy life, and my focus for social things online isn't what it used to be. But on top of that, sometimes I get extra busy due to work, social plans, or a litany of other things. I find that I frequently get too busy to even do the polite-but-rushed "hey, thanks for the message, how are you doing? that's great, I've been so busy, sorry I won't really be available to talk for the next 2 weeks but I love you kthxbye" conversation, so some Telegram messages stay unread for a few weeks while I get through my especially busy periods. But I can't imagine that feels great for anybody.

When I'm able to focus on those friends again, I often have to explain, "hey, sorry, I have a generally busy life and my already limited social attention had to be temporarily set aside for a different thing. I have time now, or will have time soon, and still care about you regardless of my absences. This will happen again but you should always remember that my feelings about you won't change."

Back when we were all still using AOL Instant Messenger, I could set away messages that I could leave set for weeks, saying that exams were coming up and that you shouldn't expect any normal messages from me until they were concluded, or I was in the middle of moving and you should give me some space and time until I was all done with that, or even just a note to explain that I was out for the evening! Whenever friends would message me and see those away messages, they would very clearly set expectations but would require no additional work on my part.

With those away messages (and expectations) set, I could then still have conversations with a more limited selection of friends I had the energy for while the bulk of my time was being taken up by something else, everyone would have an expectation that I probably wouldn't be available as much (or at all) during that time period, and I didn't have to explain myself any further if I was too busy to do so. Away messages felt like a tool to set clear social expectations online, and we no longer have any of that in almost any1 messaging or communication application, and I'm really frustrated by that.

The main way I communicate with friends and loved ones now is through Telegram, and as many of you probably know, Telegram desperately lacks any sort of away message or auto-response feature. The application is so much better than AIM in so many ways, but this huge step backwards still frustrates me and I think about it quite often. I'm just asking to be able to set short, sweet, and to-the-point away and status messages that set clear expectations for my friends.


  1. The one extremely popular exception I can think of is Microsoft Outlook's "Automatic Replies" feature, but most folks only use that for their jobs if they do at all. And it's almost entirely for out-of-office notifications, and not quite tooled for the even more useful "hey I'm really busy on this project and won't be responding to e-mail in any sort of normal way for a few weeks" messages.


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in reply to @MewMus's post:

Being misunderstood in this way feels really bad for sure. Personal projects easily take up a lot of time so it's naturally difficult to spare any remaining we get, especially on something like RP that can often take a lot of energy too. I do miss a lot of aspects of being more social though, wish I could find a slightly better balance haha

I really can't be around that kind of thing anymore after an apocalyptically toxic codependent relationship I escaped last year. And the thing is, right, that I don't even particularly mind if someone gets hit with this particular anxiety, I just wish they'd lead with checking in on me like "hey noticed you've been quieter these days, you good?" instead of just showing up in my dms out of the blue with "sorry for whatever I did I guess" or whatever.

I know it's never the intent, but it shows, or at least feels like a lack of trust, like they're hurt by something I never said, yet now feel bruised by my hand nonetheless and it's suddenly on me to fix a mistake I never made to keep them from spiraling or myself from being deeply misconstrued. It paints me as having been unfair when in reality I've been going through it, and now have to deal with this on top of what already had me too drained to keep up socially.

It always feels so shitty to say, but at some point one has to keep in mind how their approach to their own issues affects others. Even more importantly is the follow-up to that, which is that This does not mean you have to bury your feelings to keep other people happy, and that in fact makes it worse for you and for them. But it's necessary work to slow down and consider other reasons why someone may be less available than they used to be. When you care about someone, and they essentially accuse you of throwing you out, it fucking hurts.

Anyways, all this to say, yeah, i heartily, fully agree, and I hope things go well with the trip and get better emotionally for you.

Despite this being a rant, this made me feel very fuzzy because it was a reminder that my busy friends/partners all love me and that I still love everyone I'm too busy for. Never expected a rant to be this wholesome lol.