I broke up with my partner a few days ago and then saw them last night at our Secret Santa party. I thought I would be completely fine because I broke up with them for good reasons I think and it didn't really feel much like a relationship, but I was still struggling seeing them for some reason. Last night all I wanted was to hold someone and be held so ofc I missed them, but they were rarely around to hold onto anyways so what's the point of that?