i'm gonna assume you're relatively young, like somewhere between 18 and 23.
i have bad news: your late teens/early 20s fucking sucks shit completely. that age block was literally the most miserable i've ever been and it's a miracle i made it out. you do not start actually having a Good Time until you get a feel for who you are, what you want, and how to do it. basically no one is at that point that young.
now here's the good news: i know it's some cornball shit to say "it gets better" but oh my god you have no idea how much better it gets.
i am now in my early 30s, a decade removed from that period, and in terms of how My Life is i am happier than i've ever been. this isn't to say everything's perfect; i was recently forced out of my home state, for one. but as i sit here writing this i am surrounded by people i love, living the sort of life i couldn't even have imagined back then.
i promise it gets good. it might take a bit, but it's so fucking worth it. you'll get there.
jae couldn't possible be more correct. the early 20s is such a shit time. shit didn't get good for me until maybe 28.

